The Other Side

Accidently visited this website. And I just can't walked away without taking the quiz. It's the personality quiz. Well, I haven't do this kind of thing for a long time. Kind of interesting. This is the result :

How Independent Are You?

Result: You're Totally Independent! (err..am I?)

Go you!(Yeah,thank you) .You're not afraid to stand up for yourself,( I wish it isn't only in the quiz!) and you don't mind being a loner every once in a while( Well,sometimes it bother me too) . You're pretty good about being attentive to other people( seriously? Never came across my mind) - just because you disagree with them doesn't mean that you step all over them(haha! Long live Izzatul Nazihah!). Make sure you keep up that fair, compassionate attitude(I will try my best!) . Just because you're independent doesn't mean you have to be a jerk about it(two thumbs up! Self-esteem boost up 30%. Hehe..) .

Comment on this quiz:

One of the interesting quiz. But hey,it's just a quiz after all. I do admit, I prefer to be alone at certain times. Just enjoy the moment to be alone with the soul. Just like any other growing-up teenagers, spending time with the pals is one of the greatest pleasure. Being attentive to other people,herm.. No comment. Compassionate attitude? I don't even know I have the quality. Surprise,huh? Ouh, I am allergic with the word ''jerk''. It sounds too harsh. I would only use that word with the person who deserves it. Haha,mumbling again. Overall,this quiz is worth my time. Hee~

Final Station

Friday - 20 Nov 2009

It was the last day of school. To be precise, the last day of school session for 2009. Not trying to be sentimental, but I can sense the sorrowness. It was like I am going to miss the school or accurately, my friends there. Be strong,heart! That morning, we entered the class just did nothing. As for me and Farah, we went to ask for the teacher's signature for Ko-kurikulum's form.

After we had done our things, I took steps to my beloved class. Most of them just walking around,laughing with their buddies and the vital one, make jokes on others. Well,it's the last day right? So,there's nothing much we did in the class. I can say it was some kind of last meeting with friends. Omo! Despite of these laughter, still I can't avoid the feeling that keep chasing me these past few days.

Around 10 o'clock, we were allowed to go back to the dorm. Final check on our things and dorm. According to the warden, we must leave the dorm just in the way when we first arrive. Everything was settled. So, I decided to spend some time for myself. Some space to talk with the mind. I sat alone by the "laluan" which is not far from the canteen. Precisely, by the drain side.

Staring at every side of the school wasn't a waste of time. The breezy day could really be understanding sometimes. Looking at how people spent their very last moment with the close friends ; I don't know. It was just too beautiful to be kept as a memory. Though it was only more or less than 6 months, I feel lucky to be placed among them. To know the other side of me that I've never seen. To face the fact that I've chosen this path by my own. To sense the feeling of what "experience is a good teacher" all about.

After all, that doesn't mean I will forget them who had make me this way before I know this school. I began to value the word of appreciation. Each time my heart beats, I realize that I shouldn't take anything for granted as we can never turn back time. The change of perspective isn't what I've always imagined before.

Hold It

Thursday - 19 Nov 2009

Today all of the Form 4's will need to present their speechs for public speaking. Gotcha! I didn't prepare anything just yet. I was very determined to did my speech spontaneously-but the determination flew away as I stepped in the class. Most of them were fully prepared. Gosh! Why did they do it for God sake? Haha. So,I took out a paper to start writing my speech unwillingly. Allah loves me more,I managed to complete two paragraphs.

My class, Al-Farghani combined with Al-Jazari and Al-Haitham; as Al-Batani combined with Al-Biruni. Being among the chosen ones, we took hall as the location of the day. Haha! Those two classes were placed at the school's library. As they say ; cherish every moment you had. So I practically using this phrase while waiting for my turn. My hands started to show the sign of nervousness(did I say it correctly?). Felt the coldness though I shouldn't.

Looking at how other people present their speechs, I just can't find my breath. Seriously, they freak me out! After Akif's turn, then it was mine. The stage is all yours, Izzatul Nazihah! I was standing with or honestly without any confidence within me to face the crowd. All the ideas that I locked inside my head,could barely be unlocked. So,there you go! I was totally clueless what the hell I was mumbling on the stage. Hopefully they could understand my words. I swear, all the words I uttered just came out accidently.

Again,my hands will not stop show the fearness. Finally,I did it! Relieve.. I'm not a prisoner of mind anymore. Haha! We spent the whole day at the hall ; watching people showing their skills. Big applause to them! Prep class was cancelled that afternoon. It was replaced by tidying up the class. We took off all the papers on the notice board,swept the floor and for some of them,they packed all their books in the locker as we were told to ensure the locker empty for this long holiday.

That night,teachers gave us the chance to start packing our things. So,there will be no prep class. After took the shower, I started to pack my things. There were a lot of them and I did not have enough bags. As the clock struck 12, I could not resist my eyes from looking at the bed. Enough for today. I need to give my body some rest. Wish me sweet dreams,wishing stars!

Hari Bahagia

Rabu- 18 Nov 2009


Karnival Sukan. Semua semangat pakai baju ikut rumah sukan masing-masing. Sebelum start game, ada warming up dipanggil "mass drill". Syok jugak lah. Badan dah panas,road relay mula. Pemenang-pemenang pun dah lupa dah. Selesai road relay, game netball lelaki mula. Game paling hot untuk karnival ni. Macam-macam kontroversi!(ayat tak boleh blah) . As for futsal perempuan, memang harapan agak tinggi lah. Sebab dah pernah tengok game diorang. But luck wasn't on our side. Volleyball juga tiada rezeki. Lain kali kan ada?

Semua orang pun exhausted-tak-cukup-nafas hari tu. Penyampaian hadiah then it was time for lunch. Balik dorm,terus pengsan atas katil. Pukul 5 lebih baru terjaga. Malam pulak ada barbeque night. Jadik camwhore. Snap pictures dengan semua. Termasuklah Pengetua dan cikgu-cikgu yang ada. Gempak sangat malam tu. Best tahap maksima. Almost pukul 12 baru balik dorm. On the way balik dorm,nampak ada beberapa orang tengah shuffle. Tapi tak nampak siapa. Gelap.

Sampai dorm,pengsan balik. Sepatutnya prepare speech untuk public speaking esok. Tapi godaan katil megatasi segalanya. Dalam hati,dah nekad dah. Esok buat speech spontan. Yes! Haha.. Say goodbye to Wednesday.

Pandang Saja

Selasa - 17 Nov 2009


Masuk kelas macam biasa. Aktiviti best,tidurlah since aku pun tak cukup tidur malam semalam. Baru nak lelap mata, Aja kejut. "Tul,jom pegi meeting untuk Karnival Sukan". Alahai,cikgu ni. Mata separuh bukak,aku pun ikut Aja. Habis meeting,aku dah tak boleh tidur. Balik kelas, selesaikan lagi hal-hal berkaitan borang Karnival Sukan. Maklumat peserta and etc. Lepas rehat,bosan tahap gila. So,aku ambil langkah bijak. Ajak Fatin teman aku kemas locker kat kelas.

Memang buku-buku dalam locker aku banyak jangan cakap. Sambil kemas-kemas tu,terjumpa pulak fail pantun. Kenangan berputar. Baru teringat yang aku pernah jadi pemantun. Ahahaha.. Habis kemas-kemas,lagi lah buntu. Badan dah memang penat. Duduk dekat kerusi Mimi,ingat nak borak-borak dengan Fatin. Sekali terlelap pulak. Berapa lama tidur pun tak sedar. Sedar-sedar dah pukul 1 lebih.

Bangun je,pergi tengok Akif buat apa. Dia tengah prepare nombor giliran peserta acara lari tu. Aku dah buat sikit malam tadi. And the rest dia yang handle. Well,supposed aku kena tolong dia. Alamak,mood guilty dah mula menyerang. Rasa bersalah pulak aku tak tolong dia sediakan semua tu. Aish.. Kenapa lah aku tidur tadi? Aku paling allergic bila rasa bersalah. Nak cover balik the guiltness,aku tanya "Nak tolong ke?". Apa punya bangang lah soalan yang aku tanya. Adoi~

Akif mintak tolong tuliskan lagi separuh nombor-nombor giliran tu. Akhirnya semua settle. Petang tak ada prep,yes! Ganti dengan latihan Karnival Sukan. So,petang tu semua berlatih separuh nyawa untuk esok. Prep malam macam biasa. On the way pergi kelas, Awer tanya aku"Jadi ke nak buat solat hajat?". "Entahlah. Depends.Kalau semua setuju,proceed je lah". Tak lama tu,diorang boleh question balik, "Perlu ke solat hajat tu?", "Kan dah buat tadi","Kenapa kau tak hajat sekali tadi?".

I was like 'perlu ke nak persoalkan hajat aku?'. Semua gaya macam tak setuju. Aku pun terus angkat tangan kat diorang. "No need" punya gesture. Baru semua diam. And aku terus stepped in kelas aku. Tak perasan diorang follow belakang. Tak pasal je aku dilabel 'merajuk'. That is so not me. Tiba-tiba pulak cakap jadi nak proceed solat hajat tu. Ek eleh.. Buang tenaga aku je marah-marah. Niat aku, biarlah hajat yang ni spesifik sikit, untuk semua ahli rumah.

Lepas tu,perjumpaan Pengawas, BADAR and PRS dekat surau. Purpose of the meeting; to remind our duty. Satu insiden berlaku. Kes the Form 1's. Ada satu insiden melibatkan satu geng Form 1 students. Nak dengar the truth from their mouths,sumpah susah gila. At last,baru diorang cerita hal sebenar. Last-last balik dorm pukul 12. Sampai dorm baru terasa penat. Letih macam nak tanggal kaki.