So, its 2016 already.
My previous post was like 2 years ago. Like what???!!
Believe it or not, I'm in my final year degree phase. Will be completing the studies within just 6 months. And will have the real-life phase of working as a real-life teacher. Ya rabbi!!
Ok. Nothing much to update. Everything with life seems to be going very well. I mean nothing to be ungrateful for. Considering such a sinner I am, I should have nothing to complain about the life I'm having.
Academic's life pretty well. Yeah,practicum and so on.
Love life? Erm erm. Lets pause it there.
Its been two years since I last wrote here. And I am proudly to say here, am still single. BHAHAHAHAHAHAHA! Ok laugh all you want.
But tell you what, being single on my final year is so so not exciting.
I tell you why.
My ex is already engaged, my classmates are already married, the number of my batchmates who getting married are increasing day by day, my juniors are already married, and I am here writing here about how pathetic my single life is.
No,its not that I want to be married to by now. Its just that you know, I cant really deny the fact that I am quite affected with the environment, As if the environment is provoking you or even worse, it feels like people are mocking you when you attend your friend's wedding and you get questions like "Kau bila lagi?" Pfttt..just dont ask me that kind of question. Aku calon pun takdak lagi. Kalau calon dah ada aku boleh lah gelak2 nampak gusi gedik2 macam kerang busuk cakap tanya lah boypren aku. the thing is now, I have no one to use that sentence for. Worse come to worse, I just cant stand bila orang cakap, "Bukak lah hati kau. Tipulah takde orang datang approach kau. Muka macam ni takkan takde orang datang approach." Dan ayat2 ini kebanyakan masa dituturkan oleh kawan2 lelaki aku. Aku smirk 10 juta kali kat korang boleh?
Well, you know what guys. We dont fall in love just by looks. Nak kata sebab rupa, dah tu, kau nak kata orang2 yang ada rupa je layak kahwin? Habis tu, orang2 yang tak berapa nak dikategorikan cantik handsome semua tu kau nak kata tak hairan la takde orang lagi? What is thisssS???!!
Come on,grow up. The thing is with all this marriage thing, selagi Tuhan kata belum, it will never be. Nak kata aku tak usaha, I think I did almost everything. I did go out,make friends with new people, even strangers, get to know new people,in fact, i did give some chance to people who confessed they like me. I did not shut my door like seal it. Cuma orang kata, "the one" tu tak datang lagi. Aku try kenal orang, bagi chance dekat orang yang suka aku, but it just didnt work. The spark tu tak muncul lagi. You will know he is the one when you feel it. Masalahnya aku tak datang lagi feel tu with anyone involve with my life now. Semua dekat level sama je.
Bukan nak kata aku nak bertunang ke apa by now, I just wanna have someone. So that, aku boleh hentikan gosip2 liar yang tuduh aku dengan orang ni, orang tu. Pantang tengok aku rapat dengan certain2 orang, Mulalah laju je orang nak gosipkan. Im just tired of being scandle-d with anyone yang bukan special someone aku pun. Not even close pun. Boypren orang la, super junior la, I just dont want to hear those thing. Just because I am an outgoing person so senang2 jela nak skandal kan aku dgn sesiapa yang aku rapat? Rimas woi rimas!!
Sebab tu lah aku berdoa sangat kat Tuhan and I really wish to have special someone by now, so that bila kena skandal ke apa, I could use him as my shield. Orang tak kacau dah orang punya. Kalau kena gosip pun, paling2 best aku boleh cakap ayat macam ni, "Eh,aku kawan je dgn dia. Nanti marah buah hati aku". Gitewww. Kah!
Ah pokoknya aku nak that day to finally come. Tu je. Tapi takpelah. All it takes is just some patience. Tuhan nak ajar aku suruh sabar. Setiap orang jalan cerita lain lain. Jangan jadi tak bersyukur sangat. hehehe
Oklah. Aku ada banyak lagi nak release tension sebenarnya. Tapi japgi ah. Utk post ni,sampai sini je dulu. Kata comeback. AKu nak layan friends dulu.
Nanti aku tension sangat aku update balik. Haaa..yang tu nanti topik dia lain pulak. Kihkih!
Ok gerak lu pape roger. Assalamualaikum goodnight, bakal jodoh. Jangan buas sangat. Nanti ada rezeki kita jumpa. hehehe
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